You have tried. God, you have tried... You have read the books. You have had the conversations with yourself at 2am when the house is quiet and the mask is finally off. You have made the promises — this week will be different, I will feel better, I just need to try harder. You have Googled things you would never say out loud. You have come close, more than once, to reaching out — and then pulled back at the last second, closed the tab, put the phone down, and told yourself yo